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the light was dimmer by that window, by the window pane,

and i wish i could have spoken.

but sometimes time freezes and sounds like

an album of that band, selling two copies

every year, and that too on halloweens or christmas eves.

I met someone, maybe a girl; but it wasn't you,

in my head, for two minutes or more. And she kept singing

through a China bowl, and it sounded weird and selfish.

The night wore it's thick veil and smelled something 

like this, of leftovers thrown through that window -

And I was already seven months sober. And sad.

And, for this? 

A night, directly bought off a three pound luncheon;

where, at most three people would come into my dreams

for reasons unknown to me and my tiny body.

I am used to this space.

This little space that my mind takes inside me

like yesternight's half-lit dreams reminded me

that love doesn't come up to you, chewing blue mint

and doesn't kiss you on your neck, giving you goosebumps.

the freezing green entwined into these beautiful orchestra of hopes lifted into the stary night sky of a magenta wednesday twilight, sometime in between the inauguration of Mars' red, crooked, left-out and fossiled, soil, which once harvested the darjeeling tea of the Solar system that revolved around our step-mother Sun that shone timidly throughout the translucent and pecuiliar shaped window pane of the ten by ten, never-googled and alcohol apartment of mine at the fragmented heart of our beloved city - we call it home.

Friendship is overrated.
Too many guys and girls making promises at the end of the year. It's best that those remain as memories. Well it does. It's stupid to try to hold onto to them. Instead of making those hundred smses or miss calls, it's easier and better to silently laugh the memories that got created. :) Learn to let it go.

feels nice to be back; and nicer to be read (thank you, you!)
funny thing about making mistakes is that it's like a pack of chips - once you start, you just can't stop.

results to be out on 20th. for a change, i'm calm. i don't know why.
newsflash: i'm now too busy to lead a healthy internet life. yay! i'm socialising. finally. boy! i've waited for this, for a long time. mwahhhh.